Daughters...

Guess she does love me as much as her Daddy. When I thought I needed some money until payday, she was very quick to offer to help.
I just thought of something today. When I was a kid, I wondered why mom loved the others more than me. Lately I've been wondering why my daughter loves her dad more than me.
When kids want to know who we love more, do they stop to think that parents wonder which one THEY love more?
It isn't that we love one over the other, as parents we do anything we can for our kids. But we do show that love differently. Our confidence in each kid's ability to deal with life dictates how we show that love.
I guess as much as I tried not to treat my daughter like I felt my mother treated me, I do have more confidence in her ability to meet life on her terms. I hope I also instilled in her the knowledge that IF and WHEN she does need me, I'll be there.
I love her more than my own life.
One reason I decided to have the weight loss surgery was memories of trying to do things with her. I remember going to the zoo with her on a field trip. All she asked me for was a ride on the paddleboats. I told her momma can't swim and for a long time she thought that was why I didn't go on boats. In truth, momma was too fat to get on the boat with her. I knew if I tipped it over, because I couldn't swim, I couldn't save her if she needed me. She's been able to swim since she was 3.
We still go to the zoo. I promised her next time we go, if they are still there, I want to rent a paddle boat and we can go on the lake. I still can't swim (yet, it's on the bucket list) but I'm down to 150. I don't think I'll tip it over now. We're planning to go spend the day before it gets too hot here.
So yes, we fuss and fight, but deep down, we do love each other.

Now that son of mine....he's another blog! Boys, you got to have lots of patience for the dumb things they do. Now scientist are saying males don't mature until the frontal lobe is completely formed at 27! Lord, hear my prayer....